A Little Something Refreshing

fragile_scars @ 2005-01-06T02:46:00

2005-01-06T08:48:40Z

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted
and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also
are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.
You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around
waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little
more peaceful.

What's Your Element?

fragile_scars @ 2005-01-03T23:59:00

2005-01-04T05:59:52Z

JON SPENT THE NIGHT!!! p.s. pumpkin rules... that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-12-25T23:24:00

2004-12-26T05:26:52Z

i would agree with this...and how appropriate too post this on christmas... that is all

Hanging. This is most like you because you want to
make somewhat of a spectacle out of your death.
It shows that you are organized and cool headed
because you had to slip the noose over your
neck, then actually hang yourself. This is an
almost painless way to go...you may not dislike
pain but you prefer no pain. You are different
than gun shot in that you are not impulsive and
you have thought this through thoroughly.

What Form Of Suicide Are You?
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fragile_scars @ 2004-12-20T01:04:00

2004-12-20T07:08:15Z

ok so i decided i want to start posting again now that christmas break is upon us. its becuase all i do is sit online at night after i come home from work. these posts im going to attempt to not talk about work so much becuase i feel it consumes enough of my life as it is, and there is no point of frustrating myself even more. ok so first of all i would like to give a shameless plug for lindsay lohan's album becuase it is freaking amazing and i love her huge boobies. oh and i got a new cell phone number 708-263-5597 because cingular doesn't have good service in dekalb apparently and that is where my brover lives. so in other news i decided to give up cheese for a while just to see what happens, and test out the water on veganism so i can decide if that would ever be an option for me, my guess is no, but cheese is bad for you anyway and i eat too much of it. and of course my mom is pissed about it. so far i have been home for 3 days and we have already gotten into 2 pointless fights... that doesn't sound so bad, but i work 10 hours a day and am hardly around. i don't think that one of us will live through the break, my money is on my mom making it through cuz she is a ruthless cunt bag whore, but we shall see. hmmm anything else? i guess nothing...well i have thursday off this week, i did have wednesday but we all know how they like to make me work on my days off, so leave some flava on my new phone if you wanna chill. right now i have to get dressed again because jonathon wants to go out. ps bradley can suck my raw chaffing penis... that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-08-22T16:27:00

2004-08-22T21:35:53Z

ok so i am back at bu...thank the fuckin lord above. i think i may pick back up with the journal writing cuz i will have more free online time on my hands...we shall see. so yea its like the second official day and im having a blast...theres not much to do around but me, jo and allison have made the best of it and its hella awesome. ps im going for 100% weekend walk of shame this year...so far so good so lets see if i can pull it off. that is all.

sounds like me...eh?

2004-08-22T21:26:10Z

You are a Kinky Kiss! You know what you're doing,
and you LOVE to please!!

What kind of Hot Boy Kiss are you??
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fragile_scars @ 2004-07-21T02:00:00

2004-07-21T07:05:05Z

so evidently Jo and I reached a new level in our relationship because she was able to share with me her favorite sexual position...when i told her we had reached a new level, she quickly replied with, "Now we're level 6 wizards" And that was when i shit my pants. I seriously had to go to the back hall to laugh myself silly. Jo...where the fuck did that come from...i think this is why i love you so much. that is all.

I haaaaaaaaaaaaaate you

2004-07-16T04:31:46Z

ok so i don't really post anymore, and im not sure if anyone really reads my journal anyhow... whenever i want to post something i think... well it wouldn't be too good for this person to read, so then i don't. I guess this journal hasn't given me what i was hoping it would...somewhere i can write my feelings, i suppose im not ready for everyone to know my true feelings. so in an effort of safety i won't be posting much...probably mostly stuff about work, and not friends. So thats not gonna leave much to write about. P.S. i have a second job now...i charter mexicans. so if you are hispanic and need a ride, give me a call. that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-06-29T10:44:00

2004-06-29T15:55:36Z

so on sunday i went to the parade with emily, patty, and sarah (patty's friend)... it my first time and it was really fun. it was pretty much what i thought it was going to be except for the part were some guy on a balcony was flashing his pubic hair a lot and then whipped it out...that was interesting. we ate at clark's afterwards, i really like that place...a lot of vegetarian food. In other news, i got jo a job at sbarros, and she started tuesday, i guess she likes it, and its going to be nice to work with someone i can actually talk too about anything... i love all them but there are just some things i can't say around them. the only bad thing about working with a friend is that it is difficult to get the same day off when you want to make plans to do something, especially when there are as few employees as there is at sbarros. i don't know why i woke up so early today, i didn't get to bed til really late, but for now im just chillin becuase jo is going to come over to swim...it will be my first time this summer becuase i have no time...god i need a tan. that is all.

What... so I'm a dick.

2004-06-22T06:00:24Z

Today i found out that Emily (not my best friend) was quiting sbarros and was just going to finish out the week. Now she used to work there like a year ago or something and then she came back just about 2 weeks ago. And she is quitting becuase "people have gotten mean" Now i don't want to take all the credit becuase Izzy helped a lot. Only at sbarros can we drive people to quit just cuz the pizza maker and one of the crew are dicks. Now i know why our store gets transfered all the people that the higher ups want fired. Ritu...gone. Marta...gone. Sandy...gone. Dany...gone. the list just goes on and on. Damn i just realized how many workers we go through. Lets see who's next on the chopping block... Kim needs to hire someone...haha can't wait. I love working at Sbarros, i will never get fired becuase im part of the clan now...the core. p.s. i finally got my raise today after waiting for like 2 years. that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-06-21T01:07:00

2004-06-21T06:36:01Z

ok so me and jo went to oberwies tonight....oooooooooh myyyyyyyyyyyyyyy gooooooooooooooood. if you need a bf, visit the oberweis on 159th and harlem becuase we definately "have some under age hotties on our hands" (2 pts to the person who can name the movie thats from). steve is bf material. brett is cute and will grow into hotness, and scott is already there. now i know its a little molesterish of me but i can't help it...i love the boys. lol. and yes, me and jo shared a special moment on the step outside of boston market while the workers watched as they left for home. that was the sweetest kiss ever. and she met my grandparents today and they tested her to make sure she was Polish enough...she was. i love you joanne. that is all

fragile_scars @ 2004-06-14T00:14:00

2004-06-14T05:29:32Z

OMG so the concert was fucking amazing, but would you expect anything less from no doubt? me and emily got so freakin close. there was only one person in front of me the entire time. by being that close to gwen i can say one thing... in person, she is more beautiful than i ever imagined. she was fucking gorgeous. one weird thing that happened was when the two black guys, that are sorta in the band, came to the front of the stage to do the "jamaican" part in hey baby, steven bradley looked straight at me, smiled, and pointed. It had to be my corn rows, that is the only thing i can think of. And for that, I loooooooooooove you sarah. Even though i wasn't asked up on stage by gwen because of my rows like i fantasized, (i really did, i lost sleep becuase of it) being smiled and pointed at by one of the psuedo band members is good enough for me... i nearly shit myself right there. the living end was really good too, i will probably listen to them more. Blink was good too but we didn't stay for their whole set cuz emily was really tired, and i was spent and got my money's worth. i have a few pictures on emily's camera so when i get those i will attempt to post them. p.s. gwen looked straight at me. that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-06-13T01:45:00

2004-06-13T07:04:19Z

so i haven't updated in like a week. i don't know why. i guess maybe its just cuz i haven't been doin that much. i hung out with my friends a couple nights. me, emily, kt, sarah, karra and mike(the guy that likes karra) went to ashbury's coffee house. that was good...maybe brought on some unecessary memories...oh well. yea i think mike is cute but evidently karra doesn't so whatever for that. hung out with jo and jason one night. we watched adult swim which was really nice. that night i was really frustrated with stuff and i really just needed it to be like old times and watch some aqua teen with jo. it worked. so yea i hate my family more and more each day. i could care less though, becuase they could care less. just waiting for the day to come that i move to california, change my last name, and give no one but maybe my brother my phone number. we'll see whats up then. on a better note, tomorrow is the NO DOUBT concert!!!!!!!!!! i haven't really been that excited, but i always get like that. i have to wait for like the day of to get excited for stuff. i just hope the day goes smoothly with my tickets in all. there is just way to much drama surrounding me and no doubt concerts...must i explain what happened the last time. just want to add...thanks felicia you are awesome. Another person that is awesome, just a hella lot more awesome, Sarah. In preparation for the concert i had sarah give me corn rows. thats right people, at this moment matt has corn rows, and they are the total shit. right now sarah is my best friend, i love you (sorry emily...whatcha gonna do to get the coveted title back? a lot of poeple want it). i took pictures so maybe if you ask to see them i will show you, or if im not too greatly retarded i will attempt to post them on lj...there's a first for everything i guess. i guess that sums up the week...or at least anything any one would be interested in. i will probably post tomorrow night to talk about how the concert went. p.s. i retract my comment about who my best friend is, only becuase i don't want to be physically hurt when emily reads this. i will love you always emily...the most. (that should cover my ass). that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-06-06T22:36:00

2004-06-07T03:48:24Z

hola crap yesterday was soooooooo fun. after i got off of my 9 hour shift i headed to patty's and from there we went to a party downtown that was pretty much for the youth class having a show, there were a lot of people there that i knew including jon who i had not seen in like 3 weeks, and i also met a lot of new cool people. im particularly proud of starting pass the ice...simply cuz i wanted some action. and when i get like that nothing gets in my way. so when i decided (at 3:30am) it was time for all of us to leave i became bitch assed motherfucker matt. so we got outta there and went back to patty's and she made me coffee and so i was awake and sober enough to drive home. so i got in at about 4:30 am sunday morning. needless to say i of course woke my mom up cuz shes psycho like that and she was pissed. i dind't know she was pissed until the next morning when she didn't wake me up for church. through my years i have learned that when she doesn't wake me up even for church i know im in deep shit. i later found out shes just a dumbass and she wasn't that mad. Is this a sign of my mom becoming nice??? doubtful. p.s. uv blue is amazing. (the bottle does say raspberry, just not in big letters). that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-06-03T22:58:00

2004-06-04T04:08:00Z

ahhhh. today was my one day off of the week. it was...ok. i had patty sleep over last night which was like old times along with the fact that i watched adult swim wth patty and jo. this morning we got ready(an hour and a half late) and went over to jo's. so she wasnt answering the phone or the door so we deduced she was dead. jason showed up at her house and we all broke into the house. SHE WAS SLEEPING!!!!!!!!!! that bitch made plans and slept through all of it. we were pissed and weirded out by jason so we left and had breakfast, we did a little thrifting and then went to the mall to stalk the guy in aldo that i like. i drove patty home, and when i got home i did yardwork for my mom. then we went out to eat at ruby tuesday, which i enjoy very much. then my mom bought me two pairs of sunglasses, i like them a lot but im not sure what other people will think of them. i got one pair just cuz they were red...you know me. then we came home and i watched the movie in and out. iv seen it b4 but i find it to be somewhat of a sad movie i guess idunno. it just got me in a mood, and that is why i am feeling lethargic. my life feels a little empty, i didn't get much sleep last night,and i did nothing but drive around today. i need a bf, to go to bed, and buy gas. that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-30T23:42:00

2004-05-31T05:16:51Z

i worked today...big suprise. emily and kt met me at work and then we went back to my house together, watched kiss the girls which i have to say is a good movie but the ending was a bit lacking. i had a nice talk with katie and emily. its really good to talk once more with katie i don't get to see her much. i love her. p.s. i work too much. that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-28T13:52:00

2004-05-28T18:57:21Z

last night = fucked up. i just cannot believe what happened. bad things should not happen to good people...TWICE!!!!!!!!! that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-25T22:43:00

2004-05-26T03:44:24Z

i worked today...and im getting fatter. p.s. couscous is amazing. that is all

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-25T00:13:00

2004-05-25T05:31:45Z

today was eventful, my mom woke me up and we went on a bunch of errands, got my car fixed up good, went shopping, did lots of yard work...ugh waaaaaaaay too much time with my mother today. the last episode of the inferno was on today, and the real world lost once again...so dissapointed in that. even though coral was such a bitch to julie the whole season i still love her. it all goes back to "Jisela, get off the ho train... cuz you're the only one on it." from that moment on she has been my role model for being a bitch. and for those of you that know me i can be a big ass bitch. i owe it all to her. after that i watched a few episodes of queer with my one and only queer... good times had by all. that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-23T23:08:00

2004-05-24T04:17:43Z

so after i got home from work today some people came over to look at my old car. 75 DOLLARS!!!!!!!! it baffles me that someone can give 75 dollars and walk away with a car that runs... granted there was a problem with it but it just doesn't make sense that something that can be worth a good 15 thousand at one point, can be virtually worthless at another. idunno, it just confuses me. that is all

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-22T23:34:00

2004-05-23T04:37:32Z

ugh, 9 hours of sbarros is not a fun thing but it is a necessary thing. that is all

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-22T00:59:00

2004-05-22T06:09:20Z

ok so i didn't post yesterday becuase i wasn't online...i fell asleep watching adult swim downstairs. what i would have wrote about yesterday was that i finally got my car, and i couldn't be happier with it. i still can't believe that i actually own it. it is absolutely beautiful. also yesterday i hung out with patty for the first time since school, that was really fun, i like when my school friends hang out with my home friends. and today i put my stereo into my new car, it doesn't fit right so i have to order a chasee that fits a sunfire but its good enough for the time being. i saw the second harry potter movie this morning and it only angered me just like the first one did, and at night i saw gossip with my friends. i like it a lot and not just becuase there are multiple hot men in it. we also made milkshakes tonight but we had nothing to put in them but chocolate syrup so i said me and sarah would go pick something up. at jewel we pretty much sucked at life and it took us about a half hour to pick something out. when we got back we had planned out a lie for emily and karra as to why we took so long...they bought it. and now im off to bed because i have a long day of work ahead of me (12-9). that is all

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-19T23:41:00

2004-05-20T04:52:36Z

so today i cleaned out my car of everything of mine that personalized it, i was really sad, it was the last time i would ever be in it. i took out the stereo and speakers i bought and i took out the bobble head black lab and the bradley university window sticker. i took out my old carl sandburg parking pass and the garter that emily wore to our prom. that car is full of so many memories, i will definitely miss it even though it is a piece of crap...but you know what...it was my piece of crap and i love it dearly. she was so good to me. so after that was done with i went to my first day of work and emily had to drive me cuz i have no car. it was like i never even left work, i like it cuz i know no matter what i will always have a place there and i love all of them, they are like family, and in many ways, a better family than the one i have. P.S. i will always remember you redlemon. that is all

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-19T01:45:00

2004-05-19T06:55:21Z

ok so grades came out today, and some good and bad news. the good news is that delgado gave me a C which is a huge relief becuase i can move on to calc 3 and not fall behind. i know i didn't deserve it but i am greatful to him. the bad news is i got a C in accounting that i did not deserve, i totally had the B i don't know what happened, some more minorly bad news is that i have delgado again for calc 3, we shall see how that goes. as for now im just very unsettled with my life becuase im really worried about next semester i need to keep my gpa and i will have to get my shit together to do that, also my schedule is all shitted up now becuase i initially dropped calc 3 thinking i had to take 2 over again, so now im getting the butt end of like every class. it blows fuckin ass. so idunno. p.s. i start work tomorrow and i was told im getting a raise which is well deserved (not to toot my own horn but....*beep beep*) that is all.

fragile_scars @ 2004-05-18T02:13:00

2004-05-18T07:21:51Z

well today i woke up, got dressed, pulled weeds to avoid my "grounding", and when my parents got home i cashed in all my bonds, took my life savings and went and got me a new car. i got the sunfire that i really like even though it was waaaaaay out of my price range. my mom is helping me out by about a third of the car so i am pretty much indebted to her for years to come, and until i pay her back i am her slave to pay of the "interest" on her loan to me. im really anxious cuz i want the car but it won't be ready for like a day or two. im just hoping i made a good decision becuase this is all the money i have to my name, if the car doesn't last im pretty much screwed...god all i want is a simple kind of life. P.S. its green. that is all